On my walk to work today, I got caught looking at someone and then tried to play it off by looking away. Except that I wasn’t looking at someone, I was looking at a cute little dog. It turned it’s head and it’s eyes met mine…and I looked away. -_-;
I guess I instinctively didn’t want the dog to catch me looking at it. And then I realized how absurd that is
I’m absolutely frustrated and angry with myself.
If there were ever a thing as Developer’s Block, I’ve got it tonight. It’s unfortunate, I did so well developing yesterday.
To summarize, I had a great idea for a tool around 5:30pm last night. I decided to stay at work and entertain the idea and completed some really awesome development during my 4 hours working on the project. I left the project satisfied with what I’d done, content with my accomplishment. I made a bad mistake of showing my work to my “client” today. While I got a lot of praise and kudos and the satisfaction that what I built as an idea was definitely on the right track, it also opened the requirements up on my project. As I spent the rest of the afternoon wishing I hadn’t shown anyone what I had done, I was also contemplating how to tackle various problems with my primitive technical options.
I came home with certain ideas on how to conquer these problems, I tried various methods, techniques to solve the problems. I have a very strong mindset that “everything is possible” to build. Optimistic eh? But everything is not possible without using standard technologies…Anything is possible with a server-side language and a database but in my scenario, I need to do things with only HTML and JavaScript. I tried to think of any and all possible solutions but unfortunately came up short. I couldn’t solve the problems that plagued me tonight.
And that’s why I’m frustrated. As for why I’m angry with myself…I’m not sure if the problems I’m dealing with are impossible given the tools at my disposal or if I’m not thinking clearly, but I stupidly wasted a lot of time pursuing different options I thought might work only to do a lot of development and fail. I then thought about the problem and my proposed solution and realized it never would have worked in the first place. What was I thinking? Wasting so much time on something because I didn’t think or plan it out thoroughly? Foolish and impulsive. Or possibly desperate.
The tool I built had such high hopes and possibilities but because of my tools, I can’t do what I want and what it should be capable of. It’s so frustrating being limited in this way. I know that if I had access to the things I should: a database and server-side code, I could do my task easily. To spend so much time doing creative workarounds…only to fail…I’m just so frustrated with everything.
I need to take a breather, I’ll stop for tonight with this unsettled feeling. Maybe tomorrow, my mind will be clear, fresh, and I’ll be able to solve the problems that confounded me all night.
Chef Gordon Ramsay was at Indigo today in the Manulife Centre (Bay and Bloor) in Toronto for a signing of his new book, Gordon Ramsay’s World Kitchen.
Finally, we made it to the front. The drill was no posing, just candid shots. The indigo guy took two. They’re both terrible.
November is Movember month. Movember challenges men to change their appearance and the face of men’s health by growing a moustache. The rules are simple, start Movember 1st clean-shaven and then grow a moustache for the entire month. The moustache becomes the ribbon for men’s health, the means by which awareness and funds are raised for prostate cancer. Much like the commitment to run or walk for charity, the men of Movember commit to growing a moustache for 30 days.
You know, I’m not one to regularly…. participate in this kind of stuff. I’m usually the last one to spend any effort on this…but while I would do this for jokes with my friends (which is originally how I heard about it and got involved), this cause actually plays close to the heart. If there’s any scientific proof that illnesses or diseases can/are hereditary (and I know there are…), there’s a possible/higher chance that I’ll get prostate cancer down the road. My family is actually pretty healthy. I don’t get sick often, I used to go through elementary school without getting sick once (perfect attendance) for the entire year, and this happened more than a couple years! When I had my wisdom teeth removed, I only took one Tylenol 3 and was eating popcorn the next day. Some people I know who had their wisdom teeth removed bruised and puffed up, they bled a lot and it took them weeks to heal. It took me a few days in comparison. I dunno, I’ve just seen a lot of people with health issues, weak immune systems, etc. And I’m not really one of them. My family, as a whole, are physically strong. Good genes. However…prostate cancer seems to be my family’s bane. I’m okay…for now. But I do worry about it some times…
I pray there’s a cure in the future…much like when I was younger, I lived life hoping they’d perfect that laser eye surgery. Just a couple shots to the eyes, PEW PEW, and I’d be healed! :D At some point, I’ll probably do it…when I get a bit more money.
Anyways. Here’s Movember Day 1 (it’s actually day…3 as I shaved on Oct 30)….but yeah. Let’s see what happens in 30 days! I’ve never let it grow for an entire month…let the insanity begin!
