Argh! I was having such a bad day today. Things just didn’t go well. To be fair, I slept at 2:30 am last night and woke up at 8…I also skipped lunch. I think that probably played a big part in my sh!tty afternoon. I felt really…uneasy. Stressed with nothing to be stressed about. It’s hard to explain.
Anyways, the thing I wanted to do most while I felt this way…was blog. I had this incredible urge to just write about anything. My mind was racing and unfocused and I just wanted to release whatever was in there. I sat in-front of this same webpage that I’m looking at now. It was just me, an old draft, what I’d written before and what I intend to write. Everything else began to fade away.
I never really…had this outlet before. I didn’t even realize how much writing seemed to relax me. I’m trying to think about what I would have done if not for this blog…I would probably have just stewed with my music and my thoughts. Maybe taken a walk to clear my head, I don’t know. Even now, as I write, I feel so focused…everything in the world doesn’t seem to exist. It’s very relaxing.
I’m listening to a song right now, the same song I’ve been listening to for over a week, both at work and at home, replaying over and over….the lyrics just caught my attention as they seem to apply right now:
“Where do you go when you’re lonely? Where do you go when you’re blue?”
Maybe my answer is here. Maybe this is where I go.
