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Clannad – Review + Empathy, I lack it – Part 2

Sunday, July 11th, 2010 at 6:44 pm

Clannad & Clannad After Story Introduction (The After Story was edited a bit to remove spoilers)

Tomoya Okazaki is a third year high school student resentful of his life. His mother passed away from a car accident when he was younger, causing his father to resort to alcohol and gambling. This results in fights between the two until Tomoya’s shoulder is injured in a fight. Since then, Tomoya has had distant relationships with his father, causing him to become a delinquent over time. While on a walk to school, he meets a strange girl named Nagisa Furukawa who is a year older, but is repeating due to illness. Due to this, she is often alone as most of her friends have moved on. The two begin hanging out and slowly, as time goes by, Tomoya finds his life shifting in a new direction.

Now entering the second semester, he continues to meet a variety of different people, expanding his own world in the process. Through his relationship with Nagisa, and his various encounters, Tomoya begins to understand the meaning and importance of family. Unfortunately, Tomoya and Nagisa are faced with many hardships and challenges along the way.

Review – Probably no spoilers, I tried to keep it pretty spoiler free.
An incredible emotional roller-coaster ride. You’ll find yourself entertained, laughing out loud one moment and holding back tears the next. To take a quote from another review: “…only the most cynical of souls will avoid shedding at least a few tears at certain points.” I definitely believe that to be true. I don’t believe it’s possible to watch this series and not tear up. You’d have to be DEAD INSIDE to not shed a single tear throughout the entire series.

What I wrote about this series in a previous post also seems to hold true:

I’ve determined that the purpose of this anime is to make you cry you eyes out. To provide episode after episode of touching drama that cumulates to a tear jerking episode before beginning the next story.

The series is almost a bunch of small short, 2, 6, 8 episode stories…within an overall 44 episode story arc (5 of them are “another world” tales or recaps). It’s a bit unbelievable that there’s so much tragedy within just a few group of friends…but…well, I guess even in real life, everyone’s got their story to tell.

Anyways, I guess I’ve written enough about how sad it can be. You’ll have to watch for yourself. It’s definitely a memorable experience…there will be some short stories that just touch your heart and others that…are just alright.

Another aspect of the show I like is how there are moments that you don’t understand until near the end of the second series. There’s a scene in the very first episode of Clannad that is explained on the very last episode of Clannad After Story. It’s amazing that they have these pieces laid out so far in advance. Even if this originally a manga and is complete before anime production, by tying the seasons together, the intros and outros, there’s certainly a bit more depth added to the world. Even the Dango outro in the first series plays a recurring role/theme in the second series.

Side Note…unrelated to Clannad…well sorta…
I’m the type of person that really feels…empathetic towards characters I watch. When I watch anime/shows, I place myself in their shoes and feel what I believe their feeling. In that sense, I also start taking aspect of their past and their character…to really feel what someone feels. It’s strange, I also feel drawn to fictional characters, more so than in real life. I’ll feel something is sad when I watch anime but I’m a pretty cold hearted, empathy and sympathy lacking realist when it comes to real life. It’s like I turn off my ability to feel in real life…but I crank it up in shows I watch. I guess it balances out…

The point of that was that…I don’t know if I could watch this same series again. Given the things I know about the character’s future…the challenges they face, everything is amplified. I mean, if I watch the first thing go wrong, I start to feel everything that’s going to go wrong…within that first thing. I’m also more emotionally attached to the characters a second time around so I can understand them more. Overall, it makes watching a series like this a second, third time, emotionally much harder.

I guess the difference within how I feel in real life as opposed to what I watch…is that I never know the whole story in real life, never experience what others have experienced, can never really put myself in their shoes. So I can’t feel. Whereas in anime, I know all the important parts of the story. I witness it and I’m a part of it. “Empathy, I lack it…in real life”.

/back to studying .NET and working on my website…it was a nice 6day~ ish break from everything.

Clannad Music

Saturday, July 10th, 2010 at 3:19 am

Just thought I’d post these…if for no one’s benefit but my own. I’ve started Clannad After Story (Season 2). Hopefully finish by Monday. That’ll be 52 episodes and an anime movie in 6 days…would have been able to watch more if not for stupid work :@ FYI the series is romantic comedy. It’s target audience is probably girls but nevertheless, I appreciate it’s awesomeness. It’s really hilarious and entertaining, and terribly sad sometimes. Let’s hope it lives up to “Best Rated on Anime News Network”. My standards are pretty high just from seeing that, I hope this second season doesn’t disappoint.

Clannad

Clannad After Story (Season 2)

I’m not sure if it’s just because this intro is new but I love it! It also takes aspects and scenes from season 1 (above) and tweaks it. I really like the first 18 seconds and after 1:10. So basically the main part I like the least >_<. I think I like the beginning for the piano. I <3 piano. Clannad Ending

KAWAII DANGO! There’s a pink one that reminds me of kirby everytime i see it :D

Damn you FireFox 4.0 Beta 1!

Thursday, July 8th, 2010 at 11:14 pm

None of my addons/extensions work !
FireFTP, FireBug, Web Developer…none of them work on my FireFox! Those 3 things are ESSENTIAL to me updating my website…FireFTP is the only FTP program I have….FireBug is great for web debugging!

I’m trying to load an old FireFox (3.6.6) w/o uninstalling this one but I didn’t have any luck. Actually, to be honest, I didn’t google or try at all.
I just went to
C:\Program Files\Mozilla Firefox
instead of
C:\Program Files\Mozilla Firefox 4.0 Beta 1
and assumed that loading the firefox.exe in C:\Program Files\Mozilla Firefox would work. No such luck. Pretty fail troubleshoot if I do say so myself.

I guess it’s okay that I don’t work on my site for a bit…I’ll just keep watching Clannad. I watched 3 episodes @ work today while working :D I don’t think I fooled anyone when I’d minimize quickly but w/e.

BTW FireFox 4.0 Beta 1’s fine, I don’t have any strong dislike against it…originally the layout and stuff reminded me of Chrome…until I made it look like FF3.6.6. Basically, there was no point in upgrading -_-;

/this post was so pointless, i apologize to those that read it. also, i’ve been drinking…i have a headache :/

Damn you Clannad!

Thursday, July 8th, 2010 at 12:28 am

On a sudden impulse, I decided to watch a new anime. My friends were talking about Clannad in an email thread and I thought I’d look it up (Clannad on Anime News Network)

It didn’t seem too special, almost generic…but it’s well rated. The sequel, Clannad After Story though is rated really high. Higher than Death Note, higher than FMA: Brotherhood, higher than Cowboy Bebop.

I’m “slowly” going through season 1. I watched 8 episodes yesterday and I’ve watched 6 today (and it’s only 12:30!)…

So far, it’s good. Episodes 3-9 has a crazy sad story arc…it was the saddest thing I’ve seen in such a long time…I had tears. It was unexpected (since I had no idea what the anime would be like). Anyways, looking forward to watching the series (52 episodes ish?) by…Monday next week. Then I can continue my .NET….and work on my website. I can’t do both at the same time (damn subtitles!). I can’t stop watching Clannad tho…despite being a very regular high school setting, there are a lot of cliffhangers.

/back to Clannad, episode 14…

Edit: Finishing what I think is the second story arc, I’ve determined that the purpose of this anime is to make you cry you eyes out. To provide episode after episode of touching drama that cumulates to a tear jerking episode before beginning the next story. Well Clannad, MISSION ACCOMPLISHED. Actually, this second story arc wasn’t as sad for me but everyone will be affected differently…

/back to Clannad, episode 15

Motivation

Tuesday, July 6th, 2010 at 2:01 am

Because I like lists:

A list of what motivates me the most to what motivates me the least to what unmotivates me. This ranges anywhere from web development to web design to gaming to technology knowledge to cooking to…well, anything.

Anger/Revenge – I didn’t really see this coming but I’m pretty sure now that I’m powered by the Dark side. I’m definitely at my best when I’m angry and my blood is boiling. I’m determined, dedicated, focused. No amount of (the following list) compares. I thrive on negativity.

Unhappiness – Again, fueled by negativity. I’m motivated when I’m unhappy. I seek to improve myself so that I can become happy again…

Skilled Competition – Similar people with similar interests…who are near equal skill. They motivate me to be better. I’ve always been above average…people with skill, people that threaten me…make me want to be better.

Ego – I’m proud of the work I do. Similar to the above, I’ve always been above average. I wouldn’t settle for anything less for myself.

Responsibility – I’m more responsible than I am irresponsible. I’m reliable, dependable…and even if I don’t want to do something or it’d be easier not to, if I have a responsibility to do it, I’ll get it done as opposed to just let it fail.

Self Improvement – Wanting to improve myself just to be better…usually it doesn’t last too long. I try something out for a bit…and then lose my focus and move on to something else.

Really skilled competition – Similar people with similar interests…who dwarf me with their awesomeness. I don’t think that being hard working can always surpass natural talent (sorry Rock Lee!) Also, I’m not THAT hard working. They win, I give up :S

Unskilled Competition – Similar people with similar interests…who suck. They make me realize that I’m better than them and I’ll always be better than them. It makes me cocky, arrogant, lazy. I’m not motivated to improve.

I wrote this on a whim…it’s not really thought out or organized well…there are probably a lot of factors that I missed. Ah well, I’m tired. I wanted to study .NET tonight, wanted to convert some videos for my iphone/psp….didn’t have time for any of that. Boourns. 14 hour day @ work….and walking home in 33 C humid weather = u_u – ZzzzzZzz*snort*zzZz