Being alone with my thoughts for almost 3 hours today made me realize just how much more I want to say/write….really, the only thing necessary for my blog posts is some time alone with my thoughts. Coming up with topics while driving is ridiculously easy. Remembering those same topics by the time I get back to my computer is the tricky part.

I really need to stop…making new posts while I have so many unfinished (but mostly written) posts in my drafts…I should really finish those off before writing new posts…I have like, 15 atm O_O

I tend to resist blogging after I’ve made a meaningful post. Like my last post, I wanted to leave for a few days so that I could get more comments or feedback…but again, self control isn’t my strength and the 3 hour drive I had made me very excited to write.

This weekend

1. My mind was in productive mode…but Zena was here. And when she’s around, it’s so easy to fall out of productive mode. It’s like there’s a fire under my ass to get sh!t done when I’m alone. And then when she’s around, that fire is just a nice warmth…that puts me to sleep.

2. Zena was playing WoW and I remembered the pull and urge I got from WoW. I was interested but not enough to even think about re-logging in. Seriously though, when she comes back and she’s done school and fully into WoW…will I be able to keep away? Can a smoker stop smoking if everyday, someone’s blowing smoke in his face? Can an alcoholic stop drinking if the alcohol is constantly being dangled in front of him? These answers all point to “no”…but will I be able to defy the addiction? I would say time will tell…but no….as I write this, I’ll cancel my account/uninstall it from my comp, at least before Zena gets back. WoW is/was probably the biggest mistake of my entire life. But more about that later *hint* it’s a future blog post…

That’s it for now. Right now I don’t feel like I’ll stop blogging…but then again, I’m also fickle. The gemini part of me makes me feel completely different on different days…or in this case, completely different a few hours later…