At lunch, 2 guys and a girl were infront of me, in line to order food. I was looking at the girl’s legs thinking that she was really thin. Like, the jeans looked painted on. And then I looked up at her face and it was a guy. And I was very, very disturbed. *shudder*

I had salmon teriyaki for all 3 meals today. I really like it and it’s healthier than many other things. Anyways, I don’t know how long I’ll really enjoy this dish.. I’m just getting a bit sick of chicken salad and turkey breast sub.

I had 3 Coke Zeros today. Each was 222mL. I drank 666mL of Coke Zero. I am feeling quite devilish.

When I walk home at night….I’m scared that someone from behind is going to rob me or stab me. I’m a bit paranoid that way. So whenever I see a shadow behind me, I tense up, and get ready to defend myself. It’s not a terrible thing…I’d rather be prepared than unprepared, regardless of how unlikely that might be. I’ve been like that as long as I can remember but I’m less scared when there are more people around. But tonight, as I walked home at midnight, I was a bit….uneasy.

I think one of my best, and most interesting skills is being able to pick up on subtle pauses and nuances that people unintentionally do. In some scenarios, I’m quite accurate in understanding something noticeable based on something generally unnoticed. Like a detective…like House…or Batman! It’s how I have my sixth sense in driving. When I walk around other people, I’m generally observant. I used to observe the people around me like I observe people driving around me….but I’ve found that it’s not quite as interesting anymore as people are more prone to do random things now. Stop suddenly to text. Change direction or walk in an inefficient path. I can’t read random chaos! But, as I’ve started to notice, I’m becoming more aware when a guy is checking out another girl. Now, I’ve had quite a bit of practice myself, often trying to do it in a subtle way…so I understand the male mind quite well. So when I’m around people, for example, on the subway or walking to work, I tend to start noticing as other males glance at attractive females. Some are obvious, doing a head turn or tilt or eyebrow raise or something like that….and some do quick glances….where they don’t move at all, but their eyes change direction or dart around. I dunno, it’s just what I’ve been trying to visually pay attention to as I walk around, among a sea of strangers. I’ve got my music but I need to visually challenge myself or try to observe things…and this is the best I can come up with for now. I’m quite pleased when I catch someone do a subtle glance. Or when I catch people glancing at Z.

Firefox 4 came out today. It does a nice, but inconsistent with other browsers, javascript alert. The background overlays and it’s like there’s a div in the middle. I’ve got my FireFTP and my FireBug so I’m quite happy. I’m noticing my Error Console doesn’t seem to work that well though…that could be a pretty important problem as I’ve come to rely on that thing. I’ve found submission to forms, or javascript to run slightly slower. Not sure why, or if that was maybe just my terribad code…I’ll have to observe this more.

It’s been 3 days since I blogged…when I don’t blog for that long, I get really antsy…like I need to write something, fast. Even if it’s a garbage post like this. I dunno, I can go a day without thinking about it now (I couldn’t go a day w/o blogging a year ago tho). But I start to get antsy by 2 days and by 3, I feel like I haven’t written in a week. Maybe time just passes really slowly for me cuz my life is terribly uninteresting. I’ve spent 3 of the last 8 nights working til almost midnight. I went to a basketball game on Friday and worked on Sunday as well…my life is just being dominated by work lately, as I knew it would.

I really wanna spend more time with my Mac, with Link and his musical inadequacy (cuz I can’t play that ocarina to save my life), with ASP.NET 4.0, and with my EPIC SITE. Those are the 4 things I want to do an unfortunately, haven’t touched them much at all.

I’ve been zoning out to music a lot more lately…I’ve been thinking about some things in my life, where i was last year at this time and the months that followed…trying to remember what I had done or how I would have changed it. The things I wish I did. Or didn’t do. Last year was an important year for me…I saw shades of gray that never existed before, I questioned things in my life I had previously just accepted. My life is in such a different place now…but is it better? I don’t know…well, better in many things. But possibly not better in a few key ones. And those few might be the most important ones. Sorry, this paragraph is especially and intentionally vague. Sometimes I just wish I could write what I want to write. But…everyone has their secrets…