My new role is taking some adjusting to. I’m finding that as a dev, I’m a “like to get this done, quick, and out of the way” type person. I look for immediate gains/fulfilment. The feeling like I “accomplish” something. I think I stayed at work late yesterday, tediously sorting computer wires simply to feel that again.

But in my new role, all my accomplishments will not be short term. In fact, quite the opposite, they’re mostly long term. I find myself trying hard to stay focused and on track as there’s so much to do, but no way to do it quickly.

It was easier when I could do my day job as a dev and chime in where I need to. But now, the responsibilities are greater, and different. I have a lot of great ideas but finding they’re difficult to start….

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I’ve been trying to sleep earlier lately so that my mind is sharper (and I’m nicer) for work. It’s been working out. I think yesterday, I got too much sleep (10:30-8:30) and that left me slow and groggy throughout the day. Even today, I slept around 9? 10? but woke up around midnight due to a stomach ache (so much cheese for dinner >_<) and have been up a couple hours…plan to sleep soon though. . . . Oddly enough, finding myself suddenly bombarded with recruiters contacting me for dev. Where were you 2 months ago?! I got other things to deal with now! Just kinda ironic I guess… I miss being a dev and often think back at it – I definitely made the right choice (career wise) but I guess the grass is always greener… Dev was honestly, so much damn fun. And now it’s kinda more…responsibility. I have a huge responsibility and weight on my shoulders having a team. The problem (kinda) is that they’re already an awesome team, which makes my job harder to do (because I have the responsibility to not only maintain, but grow that awesomeness). Tough shoes to follow…