As you may/may not have noticed (over my twitter), something’s been wrong lately.

I had this sharp pain in my abdomen last friday for about 30s-1m….and it’s been generally uncomfortable since (almost a week now). It was getting better (the pain was more mild) but yesterday, I woke up and it was pretty bad. This prompted me to go see the one place I generally avoid at all costs if possible. The doctor.

DUN. DUN. DUNNNNNNNNNNNNN.

After seeing him, I was immediately told to get a walk-in Ultrasound from the hospital. So yesterday, right after going to the doctor, I went to the hospital. I hate that place even more than the doctor.

DUN. DUN. DUNNNNNNNNNNNNN.

Last night, the pain in my abdomen was so unbearable, I somehow fell asleep but ANY movement from me would cause pain to shoot into my brains, pew pew, and wake me up. Needless to say, it was very tough falling asleep. I woke up at 6:30am today too so I could go get an ultrasound at 8:00am (I couldn’t get it yesterday)….I’m sleepy >_< Anyways, I left work early today, the pain started from non-existent in the morning to terrible when I left, around 4:00pm. As I write this, it's pretty bad but I took two advils...hopefully it'll help. I think it's an infection or something, I dunno, it's worse at night than in the day. We'll see what the doctor says tomorrow. All I know is: 1) it's tough to concentrate 2) it's tough to focus on work, so lately I've been trying to work from home to keep up, as well as keep my mind off anything that's potentially really bad 3) it's tough to focus on anything, my mind is so occupied with...stuff lately. Kinda why I dislike the doctor: puts feelings on uneasy and stress and anxiety...but i understand its value: you get better. Still, I'd generally just like the problems to solve themselves if possible
4) there are no visible markings of damage anywhere, no bruise, no trauma, so it’s annoying. And internal, which is kinda scary. I dunno what’s goin on…
But my mind is still sharp, my body can almost do what it could before, but it hurts to walk and sit down….and I’m generally uncomfortable ALL THE TIME but it’s manageable. I tough it out in public, and cry like a little girl watching the Notebook at home.

Anyways, hoping these antibiotics the doctor gave me (without knowing what the problem is….) will do the trick. It’s only my second day taking them…so we’ll see. All I know is I’d gladly take an infection or inflammation over something…..worse.

Stupid body. In my head, I look like Batman but in reality, I look like The Blob.

“Life sucks balls sometimes. And then you die.” says the Pessimist in me.
But the Optimist Prime says “Autobots, Transform and Roll out!”.

I know that joke is reused but it makes me giggle.

in little girl voice “tee hee”