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Big changes!

Thursday, May 30th, 2013 at 11:13 pm

Didn’t know it would be announced so soon but…drum roll please?

I’m now a development manager with a pretty large team. Pretty crazy! O____O

I know I wrote a bit about management lately but those were pretty coincidental. I had been feeling this “what should I do next?” kinda feeling for over a month now, spoke to my manager a few weeks ago and it all sort of planted its own seeds from there. I had no idea things would be official so soon. I’m totally not prepared. (like, seriously, i wanted to read about stuff more and prepare more first – but there’s always time for that).

I’ve been thinking about a lot of things lately – basically, ways to make things better. I’ve seen the dev side and I think we could really use certain things (says the dev side of me) and hopefully that will be filled by whatever path I help choose to accomplish them (says the development lead in me). I think it’s awesome because I already have a pretty good to great relationship with the devs so I really want to focus on assisting in their growth as my managers and peers have done with me. I know the change in me within the last 7 years is dramatic and I feel crazy thankful to everyone who has influenced me – either shown me what to do, or even shown me what not to do (it was hard to be thankful for that, but looking back on it, it was useful).

My last two managers were/are both super great and I want the way I saw them to be the way my team sees me. I just want to follow their lead but provide some technical guidance along the way as well. I guess that’s my big goal – to not screw it up and to help my team wherever I can. :)

It’s time for some changes…

Wednesday, May 29th, 2013 at 11:31 pm

I’m sick. Again. And I’m not liking this trend, how I’m getting sick so often.

Seriously – I think it’s about time I start acting my age. Sure, staying up til 5am coding or doing whatever is fun. But at 31, I’m starting to realize: sleeping at 3:30 and waking up at 8:30 for work…is not okay. Having 5 hours of sleep, it’s no wonder I got sick. I’m not 22 anymore.

From now on, I’m in bed at 12. I’m getting 7-8 hours of sleep a night. No more irritability at work.

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Also : After 2 months of no progress on my secret project KB, I’ve decided to abandon it. It doesn’t hold the interest it once did, a year ago. That said, I will want to do figure reviews and work on my photography skills. I’m sad, I devoted a lot of money and time, months, towards this site but it just doesn’t hold the same appeal. I’m sure I could have built something, with user generated content in 1/2 the time and it would have been way more rewarding. That’s where I should have gone, I took an old approach to an idea and it bit me in the ass down the line with it’s tediousness.

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I’m going to try to focus my time, not on large projects that prevent me from sleeping – but on taking smaller projects. Reading and learning. I figure doing something like that before sleeping will also help with my sleep.

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It’s been almost exactly 1 year since I finished warrenshea.com. I’m still really happy with it both from a design and functionality/usability point of view. I’ve learned quite a bit in the last year regarding JavaScript and organizing JavaScript as well as XML/JSON. I would like to, at some point, start to investigate updating it. A professional portfolio that’s up to date will always come in handy when you least expect it ;)

Recursive(?) / Redundant Statements

Thursday, May 23rd, 2013 at 7:07 pm

One of my more recent statements has been:
“You don’t know what you don’t know”

Since then, I’ve been noticing similar phrases:
We are who we are (Ke$ha song apparently)
It is what it is
You gotta do what you gotta do
(and, I don’t know if these are some but I thought of them)
It happens when it happens
I’ll do it when I do it

Those last two are pretty bad, not sure if they should ‘apply’.

I don’t know if these would be called recursive…cuz “we are who we are who we are” or “it is what it is what it is” doesn’t really make much sense.
They’re definitely all pretty redundant – There is nothing really gained by those statements yet they’re often said.

I do think “You don’t know what you don’t know” is kind of bigger in meaning – it implies you not knowing something of a greater infinity of knowledge. It’s more focused on the NOT in the universe than the IT.

Like, if these were equations:
“It is what it is” is like “This = This”
“You gotta do what you gotta do” is like “You gotta do = You gotta do”

“You don’t know what you don’t know” is like….!KNOW(!KNOW) or UNKNOWN(UNKNOWN) ?

I think I’m over thinking this ridiculous topic. I’ve been occasionally provided more time to think and write odd blog topics like this one >_<

/rut

Tuesday, May 14th, 2013 at 2:21 am

It’s 1:45 am and I should be sleeping but I feel like blogging. A tired body but a racing mind likely still result in laying in bed with anxiety. So I’ll perform a little catharsis to ease my mind and relax.

I have a wedding to go to this weekend for/with my Waterloo friends. Haven’t seen many of them in 6 or 7 years now. What will we talk about? Last time I met with some of them, I told them I was a developer, and one of them replied with “you still dev!?”. Apparently I do. But my friends….they don’t really anymore. And haven’t for a while. They’re project managers or some kind of managers. Most of them. I don’t think there are too many people in the trenches anymore at my age. At least, not of my friends. A couple of my high school friends are also managers as of this year. It’s really got me thinking….I might need to make a career decision soon. (this wedding has been the reason why i wrote my last 2 posts – the truth is that i don’t want to tell them i still develop….i want to tell them i’m…being someone important…like a manager or something).

I’ve been playing a bit of WoW this week. One of my co-workers plays and she’s pretty into it. And she got another of my co-workers to sign back on…and then, Z and I signed back on. I’ve been in kinda a rut lately. Contemplating my Secret Project KB. Watching old Simpsons, kinda watching Veronica Mars and the original 1960s Star Trek. Also kinda watching Grey’s Anatomy and Private Practice (Z’s been watching it all). Man, they’re such GIRL SHOWS. I mean, I watched Gilmore Girls and that’s a girl show. But didn’t mind it and ended up liking it. But these female doctors shows are like, SO girl. More irrational and odd. “Like, let’s just bottle up all our thoughts and not communicate with [person you like] and then at the end of the episode, burst it all out into one big rant that ends up with the person you’re originally so angry at kissing you.” That’s your the dream scenario, isn’t it!? You crazy b!tches….

</end crazy rant>

Anyways, back to my rut….so basically, one of my old rivals released his new site today. And damn, it’s good. And I’m so envious and jealous at the same time. I’d like to meet him again soon so we can discuss all the cool things he’s done. He said he’d like to pick my brain too. Pick my brain he says? He says that like we’re equals…but he’ll always be a rival out of my reach. Especially if I waste time playing WoW again and stuck in my rut.

I need to get out of it again. I need motivation. I need a rival…or rival(s). I don’t feel I have any anymore and that makes me sad and lost. I think I improve pretty quick but I improve quicker with competition. Cuz I like to win and dominate. Not a good personality trait but I’ll try to focus it in a way that’s useful…

I need to finish my incomplete book (The Design of Everyday Things). I need to finish Veronica Mars and Simpsons and my secret project KB. I always work hard – and then don’t. And I take longer than necessary breaks until I need to work hard again. I don’t like that I’m built that way. Why can’t I always work hard. I want to, I really do. As always, I lack discipline….

One of my co-workers was a game…model…designer. But he couldn’t find a job so he went into web development. One of my other co-workers was is/was a game developer. But he couldn’t find a job so he went into web development. Both of them have great skill in their previous field but due to the difficulty of getting employed, had to work in a field with more demand, less supply. Even though I’m better than them at web, they’re likely both stronger developers than I. It bothers me….I never feel good enough. Or sometimes, I feel too great. Or sometimes I just wanna be great at everything, but fall short of that because well, it’s unrealistic. But I cannot seem to accept that failure. I always want to be great at everything…and I waste time by being great at nothing….and then kick myself for not being great and everything. So I try hard to be great at everything…ah the cycle.

(I know, the solution is to not be great at everything, but great at some things….that’s a very real and achievable goal….but goes again my personality).

Okay, I’m done.

Off to bedz. Thanks for reading :)

I don’t know anything about mobile development…

Wednesday, May 8th, 2013 at 2:22 pm

(which isn’t true but it’s a play off my last post).

Another avenue open to me is mobile development. I could do it, if I wanted to. I’ve been considering that too, as I’d get to continue develop, using current techniques as well (because the browsers would be all mobile/tablet friendly, none of this IE8 crap). I still don’t want to leave the development game…it makes me sad and hurts a little inside when I think about not developing anymore.

Anyways, just thinking about stuffz….

I’m at a bit of a crossroad in my professional life. I think it’s time to move on to something new and I have to figure out what I want to do. I mean, I kinda wanna just stay where I am…but I think I’ll regret that decision later. It’s important to grow and learn and do things you’re not used to. It’s like everything in your professional life has led to today. And that’s true every day. So what are you working towards?