My lifelong dreams/goals include…
1. Finding a profession/career that I enjoy over one I don’t – CHECK
It almost seems stupidly obvious to me but there are a lot of people who don’t enjoy the profession they have. I don’t understand how you can spend so much time of your life doing something you don’t want to do. I understand the monetary responsibilities but isn’t it possible to find something you want to do that also rewards you with enough money? I’m fortunate to have found web design and development. It’s something I do in my free time. Something I enjoy. And fortunately, something I can also get paid for.
2. Finding a girlfriend/wife who understands me and accepts me for who I am – CHECK
I’m very fortunate to have found my significant other so early in my life. We’ve been together for 5 years now, approaching 6. We have ups and downs. But rarely any down. We just work together. I’m so lucky to have found someone who understands me despite my failings. She loves me for who I am.
She’s like a paperweight. There when I need it. She prevents things from flying out of control. She….sits there and looks pretty. She…okay, bad analogy. Seriously though…
She is my confidence when I am insecure.
She is my light when I feel dark.
She is my smile when I am depressed.
She is my understanding when I’m irrational.
She is my balance in life.
For someone as bipolar as me, someone with two minds, someone who takes two opposite views on everything, I can think of no better person to complement and balance myself and my life than Zena.
3. Being financially well off enough that I can do what I want, when I want – CHECK
I’m not rich. I’m not poor. My expenses are low but so are my desires. I don’t buy expensive stuff. My costly expenses include a $200 Collector’s Edition BLU RAY DVD Box Set. I live well within my means. Even supporting a poor student, I have enough money to never worry about it. Again, I don’t have much money. But I don’t have anything expensive to spend it on.
4. Have a room dedicated to my comics, toys, action figures, etc etc. – TO DO
This one is a bit silly but yes, it’s been one of my goals since early high school. Fortunately, this will come with time and it’s quite an easy goal to obtain.
If I were to die…
I would be content. Even at the end of high school, I told my best friend that if I were to die the next day, I would be content with my life. He disagreed saying there’s still much to do and see. But I never felt that way, I’d lived my life the way I’d chosen to live it. No regrets. Comparing that young, naive Warren to myself now, I still feel the same way. There may be much to see, much to do. But even now, I have no desire in seeing or doing these things. I am content with my life. Decisions made are rational and logical. They reflect me and I control my own destiny. To hate the situation I’m in would be my own doing. But I don’t hate it.
I have everything I want.
My life has been…
simple. Honestly, I lead a very spoiled life. I’ve grown up with 2 loving parents who would do anything for me. They weren’t rich but even as a child, I never asked for much. The toys and comics from high school were purchased with my own money. I’ve never known much hardship. I’ve never had anyone close to me ever pass away though to be fair, I would only consider maybe 5 people close to me. I don’t even consider my brother close. Now, I’m not sure if my life has been simple because I’ve made it so or because things fall into place for me. I’ve been a firm believer that things will work out for the best because in my life, they usually do. I’m pretty sure that had I not had the mentality I’ve always had regarding a simple life, I’d have found drama and it would find me.
What does the future hold for me?
I don’t know. It matters little about the material things. If I still have the mentality that I have now in the future, I’ll have considered my life a life worth living. What more could I ask for?
