I’ve been motivated again. Sorta. Another web developer around me has drive. Now, usually I’m highly motivated by competitiveness. I can already feel that it’s not as true this time….the gap in skill is too great (that’s not meant to be offensive). However, the person’s drive as well as taking action on improving has inspired me to do the same.
I think 1 or 2 months ago, I was still struggling with warrenshea.com. I had my secret project, the one related to a specific toy line, on hold because though I wanted to do it, I wanted to finish warrenshea.com first.
But sometime since then, I’ve become motivated again and have two more sites I wanna do. Unfortunately, they’re both secret for now.
So I have 4 projects
warrenshea.com – TO FINISH
[toy company][toyline].com – TO START
[project anime] – TO START
[project internet meme] – TO START (just came up with this today)
If you want something produced/designed/created/built you can only have something done:
– Masterfully
– For Cheap
– Quickly
But you can only pick 2, you will never get all three.
This is a quote I read somewhere….I just wanted to post it because I found it very true in most cases….not always true though.
I wanted to remember it…so I just thought I’d post it :) My blog is my notebook/journal/diary
My co-workers were discussing movies today and they happen to be discussing The Goonies. For some reason, something triggered in my memory about a movie I saw on TV once with an epic snowball castlee and fight. I must have seen it when I was 10 or something, the memory is so weak but I remember 2 things: A slide from the inside to the outside of the fort. And ink inside a snowball. I asked them if these 2 memories were familiar to them at all, as they’re movie buffs. It wasn’t.
But we started to Google “Epic snowball fight movie” and stuff like that. Eventually, after some digging, we found the movie that I was remembering.
No wonder I had no idea what the movie was. It’s a French Canadian movie from 1984. And…”The Dog That Stopped The War” was the English title translation. So. WTF.
It’s about an epic snowball fight and a dog that dies during it that causes both sides of the war to cease fire.
Anyways, it was a great revelation that day. The internet is a great place, it’d be impossible to have solved this mystery so quickly without it. I definitely have a little more piece of mind, when something like this is settled in my head :D
Also, as you may NOT have guessed, this is not referring to me. I wouldn’t have a level 60 orc in 2011. PFFT. I had Tauren or Blood Elves…and I had 10 80s. But yes, lots of it is eerily similar. It was difficult reading the comments, and I didn’t read all of them. I’m not THAT ^ person anymore…(and I know it’s not referring to me, but it’s close enough).
I did throw a lot of my social threads away. Fortunately, my uni schools friends played WoW too. And my high school friends (my closer friends) didn’t abandon me in my weakest days when I abandoned them…for a game. I wasn’t that social last year…but this year, with some of my new friends, I’m really growing socially. I’ve been more social in the last few months than I’ve ever been. Maybe why my blog posts are going down (actually, I do have an answer for that…I’ll write about that later).
What have I done? I wish I could run.
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help, hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders
What can you do when your good isn’t good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
‘Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just want to fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight
Can I start again with my faith shaken?
‘Cause I can’t go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I’ll get through this
What can you do when your good isn’t good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
‘Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
So I throw up my fist
Throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth, that sometimes life isn’t fair
Yeah, I’ll send down a wish
Yeah, I’ll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care
What can you do when your good isn’t good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
Cos’ my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight.
I’ve been listening to this song lately…it’s a…sad song I guess. When I rewatched Glee, listening to this song was really emotional.
“What can you do when your good isn’t good enough? When all that you touch tumbles down?”
These lyrics starting to pop into my head whenever I see someone failing at something.
I’m looking at my peers.
One of them put 100% into a relationship and it still failed.
One of them tries to work really hard but still struggles at their job.
One of them tries to work really hard but doesn’t get recognized for their work.
I’m just listening to this song as those lyrics (the entire song almost) apply themselves everywhere.
When I listen to this song, I think: desperation
Trying impossibly to do, to get or fix something. But maybe you can’t. Not this time.
I’ve dealt with my own share of personal desperate failures in the last few years. Times where I feel desperation…because what I’m doing just isn’t good enough to get what I want or fix situations.
It’s a horrible feeling to have…this desperation. And when I look around me at those who have had or have this feeling, I wonder:
How could they not see it coming?
How could they not prepare for it?
But…I’m guilty of the exact same thing. Sometimes…these situations just happen.
I’ve been thinking hard about myself and that I always need to be prepared.
Prepared to lose things. My girlfriend. My job. My possessions. My family.
Ugh. Even writing that is almost like…admitting that I can lose something. I mean, on one hand I want to be prepared for failure. But on another hand, I should strive for success and failure should never even be an option. I shouldn’t even consider preparing because I *know* I’m not going to fail. But that’s not it…it’s that as much as I try not to fail, sometimes it just happens. That’s the point I guess.
(Knowing you’ll never fail is a confidence and arrogance in yourself that defies logic. A younger me was very guilty of that. Even now, I’m somewhat guilty of it…but I’m more vulnerable now than when I was younger. I have much more to lose.)
So I need to always be on my toes. And make sure I never fall into a situation where this desperation applies to me.
If I lose my job: what do I do? I need to constantly keep my skills up so that I can get another job ASAP. I can’t ever fall behind so much that I don’t have the skill to do something.
If I lose my possessions: what do I do? I need to remember that money and material things aren’t what make my life. And that my family is there to support me.
If I lose my girlfriend: what do I do? I die a horrible death alone. I think this is the one I’m probably least prepared for…
Anyways, this song and the lyrics have been floating around my head lately…seemingly popping up everywhere and applying to everything. I just wanted to…remind everyone that sometimes you fail, despite your best efforts. And that everyone needs to not only be prepared for it, but to accept this reality and be prepared to move past it. To accept that sometimes you fail. To accept that you have to try again.
