I’ve been at a deep conversation dry spell for a while. It sucks…

Much like a movie, I get more entertainment out of something thought provoking, that will leave me thinking about things well after the movie than a movie that is what it is.

At this point in my life, it’s rare to have deep conversations…everything is so…shallow nowadays. Unlike high school and uni, there are more people in my life but no one as close. I’m craving deep conversations but people tend to avoid them…shallow is just easier. It takes certain types of people to do deep conversations, not everyone is capable of them. All my conversations lately are very…superficial. I can feel my mind getting sluggish…it’s not stimulated enough with thought provoking material.

I’m frustrated. There are many things about my life that I’m unhappy or unsatisfied with. And this is one of them.

To be fair, I’m not great in a one on one deep conversation. I’m tend to sit quietly, analyze new facts I’ve learned, gather my thoughts and respond accordingly. I enjoy the listening and thinking part more than the responding…though I know that’s important to maintain a deep conversation.

I’m always up for a good, out of the ordinary conversation. Something that isn’t superficial. Something where I don’t have to feign interest. Something that snowballs into other topics or lasts for hours. Something without a right answer. Something that can be debated or argued.

Right now, the only deep conversations I have are with myself and this blog. It’s depressing. Like talking to a wall…or someone that thinks exactly like me. Ugh. How boring…